Moving Through Fear

I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
— Frank Herbert, Dune

Never has this statement meant more to me than this week. I won’t lie, dear readers, I am afraid. Not afraid of the words I am writing down for their own sake, but for how some people in our world might take and twist them to their personal advantage.

When I release more and more of the Stardust Compass into the world, will it be looked down upon? Mocked? Ridiculed for being “yet another magickal system” or potentially even called a copycat? Will people who have remained silent in my life for years suddenly reappear in attempt to either become friends, or cause ruin? Will witches mysteriously manifest who wish nothing more but to cast doubt upon my claims: that of being the spirit lead progenitor of a path which is heavily inspired by Traditional European Witchcraft (in both it’s ancient and modern interpretations)?

I honestly can not tell, but these unknowns bring me fear.

I, like many of you, have had my own troubled past in the nearly two decades I’ve been practicing neopaganism; fraught with shoddy teachers, difficult mentors, and egotistical gurus. Most have not been bad, but a few have perpetually sought to hold me down, silence the spirits who would speak through me, and squelch my own inspiration via spirit-gnosis. While they would never admit it, I can only imagine that it was because those “leaders” were afraid of what I might do if I ever took the spotlight. What I could become if I stood strong on my own.

Note: of course, lets be honest, in the past I’ve riled up more than one leader by publicly pointing out selfishly egotistical behaviors, controlling pyramid schemes, morally grey choices, and snakeoil salesmen. However, I never trampled upon legitimate creativity or spirit-gnosis. That’s a praxis I very deeply respect. And, to be fair, even these “demons” often taught me more than my fair share in life-lessons.

Yet, I can’t let these ghosts of the past hold me back any longer. These spectres are so self-centered & egotistical that they can only find a perverted form of ecstasy via the squelching of another person’s joy. One wonders what happened to them, turning them into the vampires they now are. Regardless, I refuse to feed these vile cretons another drop.

I openly admit, as I have before, that the Stardust Compass is a culmination of inspiration from around the world (mostly Traditional European Witchcraft) and spirit gnosis. As a result, is it similar to others paths currently in existence? Yes, absolutely. After all, we’re all drawing from the same well of inspiration. Are some of the ideas contained in the path unique? I believe so. I feel that multiple core concepts and foundational elements are (to the best of my knowledge) fresh concepts. Could I be wrong? Always. In fact, I look forward to it.

Honestly, discovering the validity of these ideas is one of the core reasons I am eager to finally publish more (besides, of course, the spirit demand placed upon me). I want to vet these ideas in the waking world; both as a functional praxis among witches, and a set of fresh concepts to the academic neopagan community.

So… here it goes.

Starting on All Hallows (Oct 31st, 2014) I will take my first step on this new part of my journey by posting some foundational elements of the Stardust Compass in their current form. They might be rough, but my intention isn’t to carve unflinching monoliths which only serve to get dusty after a short time, but rather to share living tools that others can explore and build with.

In all of this, I ask for the community’s support as I take this daring first step into unknown territory.

Ah’kah, Zah’kah! Jez Cahbar!

Image: “The Wandering Angel" by Firebreather